A Walk Alone

Today, I walked alone... I walked from my home, to Pioneer Mall, to Jurong Point, to Boon Lay Shopping Center, to JJC, to Fuhua secondary, to Jurong East Interchange, to IMM, then to Jurong East entertainment center before going my final destination at West Mall. It's been a long time since I walked so long, so exhausted from walking... ... The hot sun, the fatigue, the loneliness... I walked alone for so long for the first time...

I walk with a purpose in mind. A mission to fulfill! One which I tell myself that I MUST accomplish no matter what. This was something I really wanted to do, and I knew in the depths of my heart that IT WAS IMPORTANT! Much more important than the loneliness, the fatigue and the heat waves. You know, when people walk alone, you tend to think about stuff. Ever heard the movie 'A walk to remember'?, that's what it feels like. It's not so often that one has the chance to just walk non-stop, and get a chance to think by him or herself about all the daily stuff, all the yet-to-happen stuff and of course the personal matters. I thought about a lot during this walk.

First was the walk to Jurong Point, you can't help but look around and be amazed. Singapore is such a concrete jungle don't you think? Getting lost is actually possible you know? I got lost a couple of times because I couldn't tell the direction I was facing and I always thought I would end up facing Jurong Point when I emerged from the concrete jungle only to find I emerged from the wrong side. Isn't life like that too? I mean... We make different attempts to do the right thing always, but aren't mistakes a plenty too... ... It's always about trial and error before one finds the right path to go... ... I hate being lost, but I guess there was light at the end of the tunnel. I came with a mission and I shall finish it even if I am going to get lost a few more couple of times. Is it kinda noble? haha I guess you can say my will power is strong.

I am on a quest, so great a quest to find 3 important items. Luckily I found one at Jurong Point. The taste of success was sweet, and it gave me the motivation to walk some more... To fulfill my duty and a promise... An important promise. I walked again... I walked and walked... Went pass JJC, searched along the way, checking every single shop I saw. Then there was my secondary school Fuhua. Man! I really out-walked myself this time... I was broke, with $4 in my pocket, I was a poor traveller. No money to have a lunch, but I walked on. (never thought I would run out of $$$ right? yeaa, even I felt it was hard to believe). Being poor in $$$ was one thing, but as much tired I felt I was rich in spirit and armed with an iron will to accomplish the mission of the walk.

It was a warm afternoon, managed to walk all the way to Jurong East interchanged, from which I ventured to IMM to be greeted by the comforting cool air of the air-conditioners at full blast!!! Searched every level, every shop and every possible corner... But I guess... NOTHING... Sadded slightly but decided I shall go to Jurong East Entertainment center to check that area. There was a cash converter shop there, and I was so hopeful to find perhaps second handed things, that could be what I was trying to look for.

While walking alone, I saw this straight path... Hmm... life is a straight path too? I dunno. We see people walking with us, walking ahead of us, walking behind us and walking towards us. Yet, everyone is so different in so many ways. Some walk together, some walk alone, some walk in groups... I walked alone. Peering curiously infront to await who is walking towards you. Isn't that our expectations of what is to come for life? That mystery and curiousity...

Cash converters was the greatest turmoil I faced. My feet ached and my heel hurt a lot. When I stopped I could feel this numbing sensation in my feet... Yet as much pain as what I was in, I told myself that: Hey if pain can bring happiness, then I guess it's worth it? haha I dunno... Maybe a fool too? I had high hopes for cash converters, yet the shopkeeper told me that all their items were not catalogued, so if I wanted to find something I must dig through myself... It was kind of a scary task. just see the pictures below:

I had never seen so many vcd discs before in my whole entire life! Imagine searching through each and everyone of those discs... To look for that only right one... It was hard, I started, I struggled, I tried, I angered, BUT I never gave up. There was a point in time when I really wanted to say: hey let's forget about it, I mean for all I know it may not even be here and I would be wasting my time... But I just couldn't GIVE UP. I WANT to find it so badly and I know how important this thing would be for something else. It had meaning and I guaranteed that I WILL DO TO MY BEST ABILITY!!! It was then that in that angered state I didn't put down the last disc but continued on another pile... Wanting so much to finish this mission and go home bearing happy news and not bad... People do crazy things you know?

I could have been home studying or preparing presents, but why have I taken so much time for this mission? I dunno too... Crazy? I don't think so, just wanted to help so very much and create happiness because I know those things mean so much. In the end, that item never was at cash converters. I laughed a bit, but hey, life is like that you know... Just hope this hardwork was at least worth it, that I found at least one... Otherwise, I would have continued to search even more shops until I found it... Becuz I told myself I MUST DO THIS IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WISH!! Dun need to know the reason, just know if that's so important to you, then I shall do it to my fullest capability... ... Arhh! Feet cramp!